Ventopolis: Nicole's Journal
17 June, 2008 Tuesday 
Speed of Time
As I was washing my hands a couple minutes ago, I stood looking at myself in the mirror (looking quite worn out and a tad grimy), and I realised that I am happy. At least right now, in this frame of mind. And then my thoughts reverted to my grades post-finals and I didn't feel much of a flip, such as I usually do. I wonder if it's a good omen. I certainly hope so. Divulging deeper into myself, I'm thinking about what is keeping me in a good spirit tonight. I certainly wasn't this calm at dinner, which I was somewhat sulky and pouty for the most part. I'd sent a couple emails that I needed to get over with (one of them being a volunteer request which I'd meant to do all day), finished a rather sweet book (Holly Starcross by Berlie Doherty), and moved the living room armchair into my already crammy room. I have about 15cm of space to walk through between my bedpost and the corner of the couch now. I really don't have much in my room, just the essentials of a student and average kid: a bed (all right, maybe a full-size canopy four-poster with hangings; I'm a GIRL), a desk, a small filing cabinet, and a night table. I remember when we were first moving in, my parents were quite dismayed at my room's size and we even contemplated me taking the master bedroom. But their king bed will never in a million years fit through my doorway. But going back to my felicity [ha, I've actually applied one of my English 1 vocab words in real life]. I think it's because I'm at peace right now with myself. I don't have to worry about homework, tests, friends, parental nags/concerns/etc., nothing. Nada. Who knew I needed the summer vacation this much. In fact, up till right before school let out, I almost dreaded the summer. Why? I knew my parents would be on my back to do something "productive" and from my dad, "Make a Plan!". The feeling of suffocation and the glares and sighs from my dad during the long days. Although not so long, as I seem to stagger out of bed every day between 11-12, thus spending away all morning and early afternoon. I've been really unwinding since Friday. I'm going back to books instead of hours of cleaning up HTML on the compy, and moving slower. Even until yesterday, the future of this summer seemed a bit daunting, but ever since the email I sent off to the coordinator, I feel I have some decent lines to go and build on.
Another something I wanted to discuss and blow out into the dusts of cyperspace was the speed of time. We've all heard about it, scoffed at it, wondered about it, forgot about it, and read about it. To my memory, the speed of time has never struck me as hard as the past year. Maybe it was because of the harrowing rush of my first year of high school, but I feel the school year just went by so quickly. Of course, when I think about specific events and other happenings, they feel so long ago but in the large scale of things, the year went by in a zip. I'd find myself on Mondays going, Uh, another 5 days till the weekend. And then Friday'd come, and I'm like whoa. Time amazes me. Who made it up in the first place? That it's so valuable, and easily wasted. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades, centuries, millennia, mega annum. Speechless.
8 April, 2008 Tuesday
Rant
Once again, it's been two months since the last post. I'm so bad *slaps herself*. 
Anyway, I felt like unloading some crap off my chest (more like my head). First off, I'll pre-apologize to any of the new iPod nano lovers out there. Because that is going to be one of the ranting subjects today. I detest the new iPods, I don't even know what generation they're up to now. Honestly, Apple's been releasing them by the month over the past year! I loathe the colors, the smallness, and thin-ness. I myself am the owner of a 1st generation white nano with a cracked interior screen. I don't know how it happened, only that it cracked sometime during my last three days in England last summer (2007). It was too late to do anything via warranty or junk as I got it when I was going into 7th grade I'm pretty sure. Maybe it was 8th. Hmm. So I've been looking on ebay for 1st generation iPod nanos, and there's a couple out there. But the biggest reason I don't want the latest generation of nanos is because of my gorgeous Kate Spade gold leather case that only fits 1st generation nanos. My cousin who lives in New York got it for me two summers ago when I flew up to San Jose (Northern California). The case wouldn't fit any of the ridiculous tiny things that are on sale now. Arrrr...
I love the case too much and the 1st gen nano design. It's so much classier than the metallic chrome shitzy colors they have now. So that topic's now off. Yay.
So my Spring Break was last week, and I had a shitload of tarea (homework in Spanish) to do. I did like one page. Ha. So I procrastinated and was up til midnight last night finishing my geometry contructions project (worth 100 pts). And I go into class this morning, and my teacher says it's due on effing Thursday. So I ruined my beauty sleep (
) and could've well finished my Biology extra credit assignment! PLUBSHIPPLE SMIRKUMPH (nods to Krystel)!!!!! Arrghhh---
My biggest accomplishment this entire Spring Break was losing 4 pounds. Woohoo for me. 
